Crisis again

I was feeling lost and burden. Yesterday, Tuesday, my grandpa fell down while he was on his way to had his hair cut. Now, he butt bone cracked and need to be warded.

The unexplainable burden I feel for my dad is beyond stress that I can feel. Mum operation is deferred due to some complication. Now, its change to 10March, 2 days before my birthday.

Grandpa, ALSO needed an operation. They need to hired maid as my grandma are old, mum are undergoing chemo and they don't have the ability to take care of a person who can't walk. Dad, sister need to work. Me, need to study.

I so wish I can work now. Although ITP is just in a week time to come. I feel so financially strain for my dad. But I don't know to help him. I wish I am independent on financially. At least I can support myself. Maybe the pay I get from ITP will just be my pocket money for the next month. So my dad can save on my allowance for 1 month.

I don't know how now.

Burden.Totally burden.