Rising cost of living

Sometime I do felt the wave of these issues hitting on the younger generation which I belong to. The price of everything is rising. Food price rise due to natural disasters and there is lack of production hence food price rise. Limited oil, petrol and public transport cost rise. Lack of land in Sg, property rise.

With things that we used and need in our daily lives, its all about money. With a salary of 2k-3k as a normal income, I think everything is just nice to make end meet. After paying off the house loan which seem to have a long way to clear it off, paying off the electricity-water bill(price keep going up mean it take up a bigger and bigger portion to pay off within the same amount of salary) and etc. How much is left for one use or a couple use?

Not to miss out that the couple might still need to give some allowance to their aged parents unless the parents are well to do and they don't need that money urgently from their kids? Or their parents had already passed away?

I used to think I want to be a full-time mom to stay home and have a good bonding with my children and have a part time job. But as I grow up, this seem far from me. I might just want to have a kid instead or maybe not? Maybe I will have to work full time in order to provide more for the family and lighten my future husband burden. Having a kid is not a few years job and responsibilities. It will be taking 20 over years before they finish their studies until they get a job? So having a kid is like you need to feed, extra portion of insurance for them to make sure their life are well insure, academic fees and etc?

How about all the extraS expenditure? Now, I really don't even dare to think about future. With all the nightmares flooded in once I start to think and plan, it felt terrible. I don't think I can settle down at the age of 24 now... I don't even know will I have to pay the study load after uni. Hopefully my parents will be paying for me. If not, it mean that even before I found a job, I already in debt? Terrible horrible nightmares!

Honestly, I feel stress over this where I am only a year before 20?

Oh well, on the brighter side, I enjoy what I am actually doing at the moment now. Last year in polytechnic, more to come and university! Not to think about the fees will make me feel better...

What is the world turning into?

I keep coming across news reporting people did funny things just for the sake of gadgets or game.

At first, a boy killed a girl to steal her gold earrings to buy online games.

Now, people sell away their KIDNEY/S for a few thousand just for an ipad 2 and a laptop.

So what you got money to follow up with the most updated technologies and you lost your soul and health? And gadgets and games die off after few years and you sacrifice your life just for it. Is it worth it?

Nowadays, people are just so blinded with the materials around them and they lost so many things that can’t be gain back.
Is like stupidity VS blinded OR stupidity AND blinded?

Its just so sad to see such things are happening around the world. Is human life really got rule over by the gadgets? Without gadgets will it be a doom day for us? Yes, it is an essential to have it up till certain point but is it so important that without it we will die?

I really think that technologies, gadgets and games do have its good point BUT it also cause a lot of harm at the same time. Just dont misuse and mis-see them. It doesnt mean that you own all these, you are rich and you got the power and walking with “wind” passing you by like you are a star among your peers. Is not something to show off where you gain all these and you loses your soul.

Is there anything glorious about it when you got all these and the truth is you sold yourselves, your soul, your health away for it? Think twice before you do anything. See far into the future.

Stagnant Blog

My blog seem to died for few months.

Reason why I havent been blogging because...

1) I am irritated by a spam of message on my chat box with PEOPLE I DONT KNOW/ its some virus attack? I just blocked all and delet! Hope there will be less unknown people to come here and spam...

2) Everytime I typed half way, I would just closed the window. I cant feel the feel to post it due to boring-usual-stuff OR its just not interesting... So I closed it and save it as draft?

3) I am pretty busy with school work, work attachment and my upcoming business!

I am 1/4 way through my 3rd year... Gonna have my term break next week. I am going to help my friend with her room make over, business planning and setting up with her also and I am going to Universal Studio! So many fun and great things lining up ahead! Awesome!

I want to do some shopping!

Hope I do revive my blog by now?

Goodbye!

Crisis again

I was feeling lost and burden. Yesterday, Tuesday, my grandpa fell down while he was on his way to had his hair cut. Now, he butt bone cracked and need to be warded.

The unexplainable burden I feel for my dad is beyond stress that I can feel. Mum operation is deferred due to some complication. Now, its change to 10March, 2 days before my birthday.

Grandpa, ALSO needed an operation. They need to hired maid as my grandma are old, mum are undergoing chemo and they don't have the ability to take care of a person who can't walk. Dad, sister need to work. Me, need to study.

I so wish I can work now. Although ITP is just in a week time to come. I feel so financially strain for my dad. But I don't know to help him. I wish I am independent on financially. At least I can support myself. Maybe the pay I get from ITP will just be my pocket money for the next month. So my dad can save on my allowance for 1 month.

I don't know how now.

Burden.Totally burden.

2 week rest

Last week Friday, after the final test, I felt the cramp! During the paper already cramp, but I need to put all the focus on the paper and bear it through for 2 hours. After the paper, I cabbed home. I fall straight to the bed in cramp.

AND WHAT?! I forgot about the outing with D n E!!! I feel so bad. I missed cell group at night too. Saturday, the cramp is still there. I can't even serve! Why my cramp so jialat? I hate every-this-time-of-the-month!

2 month ago, I cramped until so so so severe until I cold sweat and feel like dying... End up at crawling to a clinic. Argh~~~!!!

Alright, 2 weeks time to start ITP.

I better had some fun before ITP and start of Year 3.... (:

One after another

Its thursday and tomorrow I am having submission AGAIN where people will be saying "Thank God its Friday!".. But I am sooooo not looking forward for next week to come though its Valentine day week. After Vday(monday), it will be my crit on the next day(Tuesday), follow by gems test(Wednesday), follow by ES n MAT test(Thursday). ADS test on Friday? I guess I am free by then? ): But its a long Tues to Fri... ):

I havent buy his present... I have no idea or plan on how to celebrate. We are all in a stress mode. ): Sigh. ):

Well, the current relax and fun thing is my pet society game on facebook. Play abit and back to work. Something that cheer me up by little from the moody mood cause by the tons of work.

Alright, going to print the boards later. ): tata...

Im weak, You are strong

Is CNY day 2 night now. This morning as I prepared to do my work in the morning, my sis came in the room and said she is going to the hospital with my dad n mum. I was so shocked! Like why they suddenly said they are going to the hospital?

I felt scared and fear is crippling into my heart. I got 2 bad bad nightmares last night, I thank God I felt better after I woke up. But, a sudden news disturbed me a lot. Like I got to do my work and prepared for a submission on Sunday night, yet I do wish I can go down to the hospital with them.

So I called my lecturer, I am really thankful for the understanding and etc... ... On the way there, my heart is trying very hard to settle down from the shock and nightmares. I felt like my work load is stressing me alot + mentality stress(right term to use?) + the disturbed mood from the nightmares. Just very stress, confused and disturbed in my heart.

I thank God for His peace to settle my heart down after a prayer.

I spent my whole day in the hospital. Reach AnE at 12pm, reach home around 9pm. Mum currently are warded for observation. Fever getting higher during late evening. We don't know how many days she need to be warded. But I pray that everything will be fine. Need to wait for blood and urine test result to be out. Might discharged in 2-3days time based on what the doctor said.

I wanna thank my friends who keep her in prayer and sending concern.

Just as I bath out, I am reminded that when we are weak, He is strong! So I believed that He will see me through with His grace and mercy.

Got to go. tata.

I need Your grace!

Recently, I made a prayer all about my work.
I prayed for more wisdom to do my project, His grace to see me through the submission and etc. Seriously, I need His grace to see me through. I am in the time to rely on Him totally.
I am totally getting burn out, breakdown and stress out for the past few days.

So many things to do and submission on Chinese New Year.
I had a bad breakdown on Last Saturday. It happened in the morning. So, noon, I went off to church! Indeed, His presence is good. The peace I wanted. After service, I went off to shopping with my sister n Daryl. Need to do some de-stress-retail-therapy.

Sunday, doing my 3d rendering. So stress... ): Now, I am still waiting for the rendering to load. It took more than 1 HOUR!!! If I got no submission, I would really like to meet up with Evia and Darren. We haven't meet since our last holiday due to SCHOOL WORK also. So sorry to keep postponing... ): Postpone until paiseh liao.

Next monday, printing 8A1 boards. It cost $80-$100 in total! And this presentation only weigh about 15% where it cost so much??! What a huge amount. Feel bad for my dad's wallet. :x I can buy so many stuffs with that amount. *Heart Pain*

Down with bad flu, yet cant take medicine. Because I got no time to make myself drowsy for a rest/nap and it lag my brain to work. Totally bad bad bad feeling...

Off to do my work. TATA.

Ouch~

I came across a video posted by few of my friends. Its a toy poodle(dog) being treated badly! The man abused it to make it stand on 2 legs or so. Its DOG, NOT human! They aren't made in a way to stand on 2 legs?

He throw the dog and hitting it like a plushie? It whine! It doesnt bark at all! My favourite dog! I feel so sad. If I got super power, I would love to rescue the dog! I hope and wish that the dog can turn into some bigger dog and attack the man. Is just so cute yet under abused? So sad.... ): Are they still human?

I really love to have a toy poddle one day! Mini one, brown and nicely trim hair! :D It just so look like plushie and adorable! I want to feed it with yummicious food! Doggy jelly, snack and etc... :D

And, I cant wait for valentine day to come!!! (: I have weaknesses that I failed to see. I chatted with my sister last night, the word make me feel wooooow! I feel so much better now. Honestly, r/s ain't easy to maintain. Well well, I shall learn something out of it. Put it to the past history, start a new day with new start just like painting over a clean and white canvas together with him. Now, I am still happy!

Anger might make me blow off for 10mins, but the love lies in me is more than 10 times of the 10mins.(true declaration... :x) Time change and do some positive adjustment for myself!

Time to move on and start it well. (:

Stress~~

I had my crit today. I don't know why everytime after crit I would start to feel terrible. It seem there during the crit moment, all the questions pointed out by the lecturers make me doubt if architecture course is meant for me. Am I going to do it badly in uni too or am I going to take back the same course?

I don't know. Now, its just 2 weeks away from Chinese New Year. 3Feb is CNY which falls on a Thursday. So Wednesday, people tend to work half day as we will have a reunion dinner with our family.

We got e-submission on 6Feb, Sunday night. Right after 6Feb, it will be our final crit and we need to print out 8A1 boards? And now, we still need to re-edit our cadd work after this crit session? Somemore, we need 2 interior and 1 exterior 3D rendering AND produce another 4A1 presentation boards.

The worse thing is, we might need to print before CNY which is before Tues?! Because the week we have crit, we might be risking if we plan to print on that week. Because, we don't know when is our time slot to present. No board=no marks or cant present.

So,we got only 1 and a half week to finish everything?

I don't know.

Alright, got to go. Byee!